Paradox Emotions

Feeling, but resisting
Shattered, but hoping
Moving, but staying
Happy, but miserable

Contradictory, perplexing feelings
Filling the head of a supposedly-Arabic-studying girl

Done something right
Yet feeling so hurt
Blocking it with numbness, a facade
Voicing it with angst-filled laments
Is that so wrong?

Another poem inspired by who else, but him. I think it's gone way emo. Wrote it last night while supposedly studying for my Arabic exam. I think I'm immune to basic I'm-studying-at-the-middle-of-the-night-yet-I'm-writing-poems jitters.